CFS

This time last year I was diagnosed with CFS.

I'm still not entirely sure that the condition exists.

Part of me wants to tell myself to just get over it.

The other part grunts in sleep and rolls over.

On reflection I'm not sure which is harder to deal with; the depression or the CFS. I think it's hard to separate the two - especially as I have never suffered with CFS alone. They certainly feed off each other. After all, I feel tired so feel useless, which makes me feel sad, which uses energy, which makes me tired, which makes me feel useless etc etc etc.

Most days I wonder why I even bother.